Cheers!!!Today is the end of Prelim!!!However,'N' level is drawing nearer.I can only relax for a few days before I get prepared for 'N' level.Hope to enjoy myself these few days.
Feel like attending religion activities now.Saturday got D.Z.B!!!!Happy!!!!
Take care people!!!Strive hard for what we want!!!


*Loves my world!Feels Carefree!!!!*
*Jiayan*

Hey people!I missed everyone![smiles]Yes!Today is the day!Today is the JDYY day!I am about to get ready for last minute preparation.I hope I can do well today!Yes,I must have confidence in myself.Jiayan!You can do it!!!
We had the 'E' Maths paper 1 and Literature paper 2.Both paper was alright since I know that there is not much chance of doing well,especially in Maths.Tomorrow I have P.O.A paper 2 and 'E' maths paper 2,I will not have time to study already.I do not worry because I feel safe when I go to T.H.I will work triple hard for 'N' level.Prelim does not matter.
2 more days to end of prelim.I need encouragement!!

*Take Care World!I am excited!*
*Jiayan says "Good Bye!"*

On the way home today,the three siblings got down at Buena Vista(their grandmother's house)so I am left with JunYong,YaoJun,LiTing and ShiMan.JunYong suddenly waved to people in another section of the mass rapid transport.Those people were three sections from us and I was straining my neck to see who they are.After straining for a few times,I saw HengLing and Benjamin they all.In the few times of straining,Benjamin also looked in our direction.He waved to me and I waved back[very funny because JunYong also waved before he went over to their side].After we boarded the train from Jurong East,I went to find Benjamin after his friends left at B.B.I found out that his birthday is one day after mine!If only David's birthday falls on the 10 of June then it will be fun but disappointingly it is on the 27 of May.Anyway tomorrow got Q.S.N.B!!!!!Yeah!!

*Take care my World!!!*

*Jiayan smiles "byebye" *

Hey!Today is FRIDAY!!!!!I am so happy[smiles].We had Physics and Literature Paper 1 and I do not have a good feeling.Physics is two words: Total Failure! because I did not study at all yesterday.Came back home and I played games then I went off to M.F.B .Anyway the Literature Paper 1 was okay,I enjoyed doing it but it is just that I know I will not up to the standard this time.I did not understand the irony in the story and I guessed my way through that question.Enough about that,I am really looking forward to the H.Y.H tonight.Welcome Event.The guests are also Q.S.N???I wonders.[smiles] By the way my sprained neck is getting better!I can turn to the left side more naturally now,although it still hurts a little.

Finally,I can type [SIX]6 days to end of prelim.Take care people!Have fun this weekend!Relax!!!Happy days are ahead of us!

*Loving religion weekends*
*Jiayan*

We did the National Builder today!!It was absolutely fun!!I really hope to play again but I cannot purchase it,Government Property.Anyway today I get to go home at 10 a.m.!!!Initially we have Literature Paper 1 after the National Builder game however,due to subject clashes,we will take it tomrrow instead.Originally,History is scheduled for tomorrow but it will be shifted to next thursday,which means that my prelim will be dragged to one day more than the others. Guess that I can only have a game of badminton after next thursday,anyway the rain is cool today![smiles]
Today should be CJ's turn to say her D.D.Y.Y(know what I am talking about?Guess yourself,I would not tell.).Speaking of the devil,she just called[at 12:42] me while I just typed finish the previous sentence.I will help her with it later,giving all my best.[Smiles]
One more thing to add;just now after I played the National Builder,Heng Li recommend me one game.It is quite fun and cool,you should go and try.Go to Yahoo,then click on games and choose 'Dark Cuts' to play.Hope you will enjoy it!
7 days more to end of prelim.Hope everything is well with everyone.Yupin!!!Give your best!!I am supporting you morally!!!
*Smiles & Rains!Take care my world!!!Bye!*
*Jiayan smiles Goodbye*

Yesterday I was lying on my bed, then I got out of bed when I saw that it was raining.After I closed all the windows,I realised to my horror that it was 5 a.m. and I quickly went back to "sleep".I did not have enough sleep and when I got up the second time, I found out that I have sprained my neck.I cannot turn to the left side, it is still very painful now.I am very dizzy now because my head feels unbalance.
Today I have Science Chemistry and P.O.A paper 2.Both papers are okay but I could not balance my balance sheet[signs].Somehow I seem to have lost the ability to balance the balance sheet.This was never my problem in the past.Now all I have to do is to practise even harder!
When we were dismissed,I reached a pathway outside our school in 5 minutes.I fell down on the rock pavement[painful] because three person was walking towards me.The third person did not bother to go behind the first and second person so I missed my footing when I was giving way to her.She did not even bother to say sorry or help me up[sickening].I continued to walk home under the hot sun.I really felt uncomfortable.Firstly because of my neck,secondly because the sun was so glaring that I was having a slight headache and lastly due to the minor pain on my knee.All these add up to a terrible combination.I feels so sick.
7 more days to end of prelim.

*Stay cheerful!My world!*
*Jiayan*

This post is for someone who holds an important place in my heart.Firstly,I want to tell you that I am proud of you,proud that you are selected.I am not saying that you cannot do this but it is just that I am worried for you because I care about you.This is none of my business but I just want you to know that I hope you will not forget about your initial purpose.I am afraid that there will be one day when I no longer see you near me on our path together.I am not scared of being alone but I am scared that we will lose you.However,you chose this so I support you all the way.I really hope you do not forget and that you are still you to the end.No offence,I am just speaking from a friend's perspective.I do not wish to add to your stress but I want you to take really good care of yourself.Sorry if this adds pressure or unintentional worry to you.Forgive me for saying all these.All the best!!!

*Jiayan*

Hi friends!Today I did the most senseless thing in the world.It was Social Studies paper today and below are the instructions:


1) Staple cover page with Section A.
2) Start Section B on a fresh sheet of paper.
3) Hand in Section A & B seperately.
4) Hand up Question paper.



So what did I do?I, instead of starting Section B on a fresh sheet of paper,I wrote it together with Section A.It was until the last three minute of the paper that I realised this.Full with regret,I passed up the paper.I stapled Section A part 1a,b with cover page and hand up 1c,d
with 2a,b,c when we are asked to hand up Section B.How careless and senseless I was,I did not looked at the instructions.If my papers were to fall in the terrible hands of Mr Tan[discipline master], I will not have the least hope that he will help me transfer marks into Section A.But if it is Mrs Chan,my history teacher,she MAY be kind to help me mark parts 1c&d and help me transfer mark.
Well,what was done cannot be undone.This will teach me a good lesson to follow instructions
given and not continue blindly.I am assured that I will follow instructions from now onwards.

Social Studies paper done.8 more days to end of prelim.

*Looking bright today.Take Care!My world!=>*
*Jiayan*

Today is the release of GCE 'O' Level Mother Tongue result!I was not excited but kind of disappointed.I got an A2.I was hoping to get A1 so that I need not come to school next Monday and that I can use the day for other subject's revision.Also,not getting A1 symbolises spending more money for examination fees.If I am going to retake,I need to spend additional money.However,I am not guaranteed to get an A1 if I retake.The disappointment will be greater if I do not suceed the next time I try,the next time we will be sitting with the extremely higher mother tongue people which means greater pressure.I want to give myself one more try but I must not regret if I do not meet up with my expectations.
English papers are done.9 more days to end of prelim.Hope to strive better!!!


*Take care & work hard*
*Jiayan*

Tomorrow[or should I say today?=p] got Q.S.N.B!!!!!Really hope it will come soon!!!!I cannot wait to have fun with my pals!!!Wishing for a happy Sunday(smiles).
I wonder what we will get to eat tomorrow?(glutton face)

We are going to rock the world~!!!!=>

*Sweet dreams & good night!!!Tomorrow is another great day!!!*

*Jiayan says bye~bye =>*

Today is National Day!!!!!!42 years already!!!![same as my uncle]My family are going to celebrate my mother's and grandfather's birthday today!Yesterday my mother called my uncle to ask where he want to have dinner today,he went to ask my cousin.My younger cousin actually said"See where JieJie[me] wants to go,she want to go where,we will go where.".I was suprised but very touched.I did not dote on him for nothing.[smiles]I am looking forward to see my cousin and family later!Today rocks!Even though I will be missing watching the parade today.



*Happy National Day*
*Jiayan*=>

Disappointment is stronger than Anger.

I stood alone by myself until the bazaar started.I felt totally left out.I was angry yet nothing was done.It was all my fault,is it not?If I had not befriend him in the first place,what happened today would not happen.

If friends really exists,they would not forget about you,not even say left you out,is it not?The feeling of being left out is terrible but friends are the saviour to that.If someone can left you out totally and be with your disliked,do you still call that person a 'friend'?

I am hurt.But not the first time.I have been hurt again and again.The discomfort that I feels,I thought my friends can ease.But I was wrong,so wrong.I am the sacrifice,everytime.When asked to choose between me and x,I am never chosen.Perhaps I should not be so stupid and wake up.Originally I thought today would turn out great,I hoped to have fun with my buddies but who knows?It was all ruined.Why is it that I always have to give in to people and nobody give in to me once or twice?But I should be more understanding is it not?I should be more mature and give in.Yes this is what I always do,that is why today I still end up in such a state.


But who cares?It is not their problem,it is mine.Always mine.Everything will be back to normal on Monday.Because I DESERVED to be treated in such a manner.They could not care more,it does not pain them.I will just have to arrange my own emotions and pretend that nothing happened,as always.This will be the last time,once and for all,that I will be hurt.I would not be so silly anymore and mind about these things.I will just let things pass and forgets.Hope true friends appears when I enter Polytechnic.


Today is Mummy's birthday.But because of what happened earlier,my day is spoilt.I will try hard and get myself into a happier mood because these things are not worth me griefing over.Later I will be with YiRui,hope she helps me get over it.Happy Birthday Mummy!!!!


*I am gonna get HIGH!!!!!!!!WOOHOOOOO!!!!*
*Jiayan*

Pans for centries,are used for cooking.[The pan is above the stove,being heated]

Pan: Ouch~!It's hot!!!HOT!HOT!
Spoon: Shut up!You are making too much noise!
Pan: Why don't you switch places with me?!Idoit!You are not experiencing my pain!
Spoon: I know how you feel.But just shut up.
Pan: You don't!Ouch~!
Spoon: You are not the only pan that exist,I know what you are going through,I understand.
Pan: It's not you being heated,you will never understand!!!!
Spoon: Well,it's just the heat,bear with it.I know you feels burned.
Pan: It's none of your business!You don't get heated so you don't know how I feel!!!!
Spoon: Whatever,I don't care.Just shut up.


We always think we knows how others felt but we do not.We only can imagine and estimate.It is only when you experience it for yourself then you will know the feeling.People are selfish.People does not care,when things does not happen to them personally.

A father once told his son"Whenever you get angry,hammer a nail into the soil.But when you have forgiven,take out a nail from the soil.".Day passed by and the soil was filled with nails.The boy learned to control his anger day by day and took out the nails.When the soil was freed from nails,the boy has achieved the stage of not being angry.However,his father told him"Look at the soil.Though there are no more nails,there were holes left behind by the nails.".It then dawned on the boy that hurt has been made permanently,that no amount of repayment can undo what has been done.When hurt is done,it leaves a scar.Though the wound can heal,the scar will always be present,to remember the hurt that one once experienced.
Be mindful of what you do or say to others,whether or not you are angry.It may cause hurt,even if it was unintentional.The scar imprinted can never be erased.Sorry cannot help anything,it only lightens.Sorry does not mean anything unless there is no repeat.

Just now at Qing Shao Nian ban,I was asked to elaborate on the 24 Tiao Fo Gui Li Jie.I was stressed out!Wu Lie said"This is her(my) first time,let's cooperate."so there I went elaborating.They said it was okay,I really hope so.Then I asked Mu Xing "You understand what I was talking about?"he replied "Yeah,but I have known it long ago.(-_-''''' I also knew it long ago)".But I am that I was given the chance to elaborate.(Smiles)

Absentees for today:

Junyong
Xueyi
Tianchong
Weitan
YaoJun
Liting
Caijun
Shiman


Anyway I woke up only at 9:40 a.m. ,overslept.By the time I reached it was already 10:10 a.m..Right away when I set foot into Zheng Tang Zhu's Fo Tang,I was teased by Mr. WoodenStar for being late.I laughed out loudly when KorKor(Jk) arrived at 10:25 a.m..He woke up at 10a.m.[One late still got one late late=p]Wu Lie was stressed out today as those bunch of monkeys were really overboard.He was really mad and strict,it creeped some of us out.
I hope next week will turn out better for all of us.Take care my friends!=>


*Study*
*Jiayan*

Greetings!It has been a long time since I last post an entry right?I have been busy and lazy because there are just so many things to do !Last Sunday was my prayer hall's annivesary,12 years already.....but extremely tired that day.The days are nearing to our 'dearest' 'N' level.Tomorrow might be the release of 'O' level Mother Tongue result....I am worried.I am glad if I get an A2.Do not place too many expectations on me and do not say things like"If you cannot,we surely cannot achieve that." because I am stressed.I know where I stand,I hate to see disappointment if I did not achieve an A1.I already gave in my best.I have no more regrets!I am not going to take another Mother Tongue examination no matter what!
I hope everyone will get good results for 'N' level so lets all work hard together!Do not get too stress though.Take care!Do not fall sick during exams!=>



*Lots of Love*
*Jiayan*